Proud to be One of God’s RADICALS!

I have been called Radical, and I kind of surprised myself, and answered, Yes, I am a Radical I am!

I am RADICAL about my love for my God, my country,my family, and my friends, and I will FIGHT with all I have to try and “protect” and “save” them all from the demons in power!! I am Radical about my love for America and I will FIGHT for her, and I will honor my ancestors by not sitting back and allowing the demons to completely destroy our beloved nation!

I have always been a Rebel, and I have been proud of it. I never wanted to go along with the clique’s, and I have always followed my own path and traveled to the “beat of my own drum”.  I am unique. I never give up, when I know that it is God’s will. 

no longer accepting things that i can change

I never knew that I was a Radical. I guess that I am. There are a lot worse things to be. Someone who has never failed, must never have tried or done anything. I have failed many, many times in my sixty two years of life. 

Definition of Radical: 

Simple Definition of radical

  • : very new and different from what is traditional or ordinary

  • : very basic and important

  • : having extreme political or social views that are not shared by most people

Examples of radical in a sentence

  1. The computer has introduced radical innovations.

  2. There are some radical differences between the two proposals.

  3. The new president has made some radical changes to the company.

Source: Merriam-Webster’s Learner’s Dictionary



How deep the Father’s love for us,
How vast beyond all measure
That He should give His only Son
To make a wretch His treasure

How great the pain of searing loss,
The Father turns His face away
As wounds which mar the chosen One,
Bring many sons to glory

Behold the Man upon a cross,
My sin upon His shoulders
Ashamed I hear my mocking voice,
Call out among the scoffers

It was my sin that held Him there

Until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life
I know that it is finished

I will not boast in anything
No gifts, no power, no wisdom
But I will boast in Jesus Christ
His death and resurrection

Why should I gain from His reward?
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom
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New Year’s Prayer: A Christian Prayer of Obedience and Surrender

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Stained glass at St John the Baptist’s Anglican Church, Ashfield, New South Wales. Illustrates Jesus’ description of himself “I am the Good Shepherd” (from the Gospel of John, chapter 10, verse 11). This version of the image shows the detail of his face. The memorial window is also captioned: “To the Glory of God and in Loving Memory of William Wright. Died 6th November, 1932. Aged 70 Yrs.” (Photo credit: Wikipedia)


“New Year’s Prayer” is a Christian prayer by Jack Zavada. Written in poetry form, the prayer resounds with a re-dedication theme of daily surrender and obedience to the Lord.

New Year’s Prayer

Lord, this year I want to change, 
and I’ve said that in the past. 
but now my prayer is different 
’cause I understand at last.

I wanted my own way before, 
I ignored your loving plans. 
But now I’m putting everything 
into your nail-scarred hands.

I promise to obey you 
out of gratitude and love. 
I won’t be giving orders 
to my Father up above.

I finally realize the truth 
and so I’ve changed my prayer. 
The safest place for me to be 
is in your gentle care.

Please be my shepherd, Jesus
that’s all I ask of you. 
In good times and in bad this year, 
Take my hand and lead me through.


–Jack Zavada

Sacred Resources~~God Should Be Our Number One Resource in Times of Trouble

In times of trial and tribulation, we are taught to go to God for help. We say in our program that we have to get back to the basics. We go back to the first three steps, and remember our priorities. We must always remember our number one priority must be our sobriety and serenity. We are powerless over some things, and so we ask God to help us. Bad things happen to good people. God gave us Free will. We are in a Spiritual War! The good=God vs. the evil=Devil! We must be strong and with God’s help we can get through anything.  

God bless those poor victims in Connecticut who lost their loved ones. I can’t imagine anything worse, than losing your own child at all, let alone in such a horrific and horrible way. The Devil has been busy. The murderer was said to like Goth.  I believe that Goth is of the Devil. God help us all this world is becoming more evil by the day. 

“When times are the toughest and it seems as if you are as low as you can go and when Possibility Thinking hasn’t had the resources you expected, you are in danger of burnout. It’s precisely at these times you need God because when you remain in touch with God, you are immune to burnout.

You say, “But don’t you get terribly down at times?” 

Yes, but remember I said you can be immune to burnouts, not brownouts.

A brownout is a temporary power failure. It is not a permanent resignation, divorce, or bill of sale. You may feel down in a brownout, but you don’t abandon the ship as would in a burnout.

It’s important to know the difference. In a brownout the power will come back on. A burnout? That’s a toughie!  

To keep a brownout from becoming a burnout you must remain in touch with God~~and that’s what prayer is.

But remember, keeping in touch with God won’t eliminate your problems…it will only help you manage them. The late comedian Grady Nutt said it:  “God should be a resource in the struggle, not a way around it.” source: Robert H. Schuller, 1995

Don't Give Up

Sacred Resources

Excellent blog post. I too escaped the “psycho” not “loon”. I have thought about writing my story for years. You dear have given me the motivation to begin my story of survival from my “psycho”. At the time, in 1998, I was depressed and divorced for the third time, and very vulnerable when I met my “psycho”. He was also good looking and very manipulative. I fell for his lies, and his charms. After six months of a whirlwind courtship, we married. I had high hopes and I wanted to believe everything that he told me. I had no idea of the “insanity” and “violence”, that I was getting into.

By God’s grace and the support of a loving family, I was able to finally get away from his “stalking” when I left him. I left him several times before I had had enough. I survived two years of “stalking”, hiding, and living in fear. I started carrying a gun beside my bed. It will take a long time to tell the whole story. I will leave it at that. By God’s grace, I am remarried now for seven years, and I have never been happier. We are the love’s of each other’s life’s. We are not perfect, but as I say we are perfect for each other. It is a God thing. I stayed single for six years and worked on me. Never, Never give up. Nothing is impossible with God.

Prego and the Loon


At first I was unable to tell my story of domestic violence because I was in SHOCK. I couldn’t believe what was going on around me. I was stuck in that moment of… Did that just happen to me? I was sure I was having a bad nightmare and I would awake at any moment. Then I was in DENIAL. I was in complete disbelief of everything going on around me. How could my husband, the so called man of my dreams abuse me? His angry fists of rage were life threatening and his words cut like a knife, but I was still HOPEFUL. Which is why I still did not speak up at this point. I mean imagine if I told my friends and family the horrible things I was experiencing at home, and then we patched everything up and lived happily ever after. Lastly I was AFRAID of…

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Givers And Takers

My mentor told me years ago~~”Sally, in this world there are Givers and Takers. You are a Giver, and as long as you are willing to Give the Takers will Take until they Suck you dry if you let them!” 

I had to learn how to set boundaries, and start saying, NO when I needed to. I had to relearn some things that were not benefiting or helping me, and were keeping me in the Victim mode. I had been taught to not be selfish, and think about the “starving children in Africa“, etc..I was taught by some self righteous Christians, that I should not be selfish, thank God for the twelve steps, I learned a new way to live. Healthy, Happy, and Independent. I did not become heartless, I just had to learn to start being true to mine own self and needs. One of our quotes to live by is: “To Thy Own Self Be True”. 

I had became Co-Dependent and depended on others too much. I almost allowed the Takers to suck me dry!! When I reached the point of Depression and thoughts of Suicide, I decided that I either had to “let go” or die, and that I must take care of me first or I was of no use to anyone else.  I learned that my needs are important too, and that it was OK to take care of me, and that I did NOT have to give up me in order to be loved. I had to learn how to have relationships with God #1, Myself #2, and then Others #3. 

People who sit back and whine about their life’s and how everybody “done, done them wrong”, are playing the Victim, and they are not helping themselves to grow or succeed in life. They stay stuck and angry and are allowing their resentments to “eat them up”. They are a drain on society. I chose to take control of my own life, and change what I could about me. I learned that it was NOT my job to fix the rest of the world, and if they wanted what I had then they had to be willing to go to any lengths to get it. And…that there are NO free rides! I chose to become a Victor instead of a Victim. 

Today by the Grace of a loving and forgiving God, I have Peace and Serenity


I don’t have to give up me, to be loved by you.  I think we should celebrate being white or whatever race that we are. We should not allow others to play the race card with us. I am proud to be white, never wanted to be any other race. I am not ashamed of it, like some would like me to be. God made us all. We are each children of God. To deny what we are is Shaming and Wrong! God made me and I will be proud of how beautiful God made me. I wasted a lot of years trying to please others, and be something else than what I was, and I tried to fit in.

Years ago, God told me, “Why do you keep trying to fit in, when I made you to stand out?” One of the greatest blessings that recovery has given me, is to know that God loves me ‘JUST AS I AM’.

Wow, this little girl has a powerful message. Beautiful voice.

PATIENCE: When God Answers “Slow”.

When the time is not right, God says, “Slow”.  Nowhere in the entire Bible can you find a Bible verse that says that God will anything you ask Him to do when you snap your fingers. God does not offer an instamatic prayeranswering service

God maintains control in the area of the why and when. If God answers no to your very sincere prayer, and you ask Him why, god will not answer or explain. God doesn’t answer your why questions because raising the question means you are not satisfied with the no.

You want to argue and God refuses to be drawn into an argument. He knows that any explanation He might give would not satisfy you. 
If God answered every prayer at the snap of your fingers He would become your servant~~not your master.  God would be working for you instead of you working for God.

God’s delays are not God’s denials. God’s timing is perfect. Patience is needed in prayer. Some people don’t suffer from doubt as much as from impatience. 

A man said to me, “I have lost faith in prayer.” After listening to him I said, “You have not really lost faith in prayer because you are still praying. You simply lost Patience.” 

Longtime members of our church know that we spell the word “faith”..P-A-T-I-E-N-C-E.

“O rest in the Lord, wait patiently for Him and He shall give thee thy heart’s desire. O rest in the Lord, wait patiently, wait patiently for Him.” 

source: Hours of Power, Robert H. Schuller, 2004

Those of you who know me, know that I have never had much patience. God has been working on me for years. In 1987, I learned how to accept God’s will through “pain, agony, and torture”, of my own making. I blamed God for all my problems, even though I had made the “bad” choices.

I graduated in September 2011 with my Bachelor of Science degree in Information Systems Security. I had high hopes, and planned to get a good paying job so that I could take care of my husband and Mother. God said, “No”.

By God’s grace,  I was able to be home with my husband and mother. My husband has heart problems and diabetes and was in the hospital with the shingles. They almost killed him with the cure! Instead of one day in the hospital, it turned into five days, I was there every moment until he came home. If I had not been there they could have killed him with the cure. God knew that I could not have handled two deaths in one year. Mother was 84, and in the last stages of her kidney failure. She entered the hospital on my birthday, January 9, 2012. Me not working, I was able to give her constant care and companionship up until her death on March 9, 2012. By God’s grace, Mother left me and my husband her home and truck. God has been good to us, even through it all. Mother died peacefully in her sleep. I will be forever grateful for the six years that we had together, we became best friends.

Now, seven months since Mother’s passing, and we are really struggling financially. Sometimes I feel guilty because I do not have a paying job. But...I have to have “faith” that God is in “control”…and when it is time…the job will come.  For now, I am able to spend time taking care of my husband and enjoying our home, that my Mother and Dad had built. God has blessed us with a loving family and a comfortable home and reliable truck. But…even more than that He has given me a “legacy of love”.  I have begun working on my genealogy more, and finishing my books. I am blessed. Praise God.

Forgive But Don’t Forget! Don’t Allow Unacceptable Behavior!

I love that song! I love Matthew West.

We do need to forgive, but when I was trying to find some peace while married to the PSYCHO, my sponsor told me to “forgive” but do NOT “forget”! He just kept telling me that I just had to accept it and forgive! I forgave him and took him back, I don’t know how many times.

The SOLUTION was for me to “let go and let God” have him.

I had to accept that I could not change him, but my God loved me and didn’t want me to live with unacceptable behavior. Use the Serenity Prayer. We have to Accept what we cannot change, but we must Change what we can! ABUSE is unacceptable, and I did not want my son to grow up thinking that it was alright to Abuse women. If I stayed, and allowed it to continue, then I was “enabling” him to continue to Abuse me.

In my recovery, I have forgiven everyone who has harmed me, even him. The difference is that I would not continue to allow him to Abuse me.  It has been twelve years now, and he is still the same miserable, hateful, angry, lying, using self. I pray for him that is all that is required of me. When I let go and let God have him, God put the “love of my life” into my life and we married seven years ago. He would die before he ever hurt anyone else, especially me. I am happy and proud to be his wife.


English: The Apostle Paul
English: The Apostle Paul (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
English: Their are thousands of artworks creat...
English: Their are thousands of artworks created in the art world depicting St Paul. This painting was created by the famous artist called Rembrandt. It hangs on the walls of the National Gallery of Art, Washington DC (Photo credit: Wikipedia)


God can take something that is meant to harm us from the devil and bless us with it. Sometimes the thing that we think is not good, is the best thing for us, and God’s will. I have learned through the years to put it into God’s hands because only He knows what is best for me.  He has always known what is better for me than myself.

Paul the Apostle, Russian icon from first quar...
Paul the Apostle, Russian icon from first quarter of 18th cen. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

God will never leave me nor forsake me. He has promised me. I am truly blessed.

One of my favorite quotes out of the Bible is: “I have learned in whatsoever state I am in, therewith to be content.”~~Apostle Paul

Your Life Is Not an Adventure But a Quest

Your Life Is Not an Adventure But a Quest.

Remember God is in charge. I try to find out what God’s will is for me, and try to do it to the best of my ability. However it turns out, that is God’s will for me.

Seven years ago, I was divorced and lost my job. I had to move out of my apartment, because I had no job to pay rent. By God’s grace, I had a loving family who took me in. I did not want to move back home at the age of 50, and I felt like a failure. But with God, my family, and my support system, I survived it. As an added bonus, from God I met the man of my dreams 3 months later, and we married. We took care of my elderly mother for 6 yrs. and he has been my saving grace. I went back to college and earned my BS degree with honors.

I was so hopeful, that when I graduated I would find a good job, and then I could help support my family.  Well, suffice to say, the economy bottomed out, and my mother passed away, and still no job! Thank God, for God’s grace, my husband has been my “rock”, and he has been there for me all along.

Conclusion: If I had not “let go and let God” have my will and my life, I could have missed the last 6 yrs. with my mother, and would never have met my husband. God is good!

My suggestion: Never, never give up! Go where God leads you.

Why Fit In When You Were Born To Stand Out?

Source: via Sally on Pinterest



All my life I tried to be someone else. I worshiped my Mother and wanted to be just like her. She was a wife and mother of six children. She had her hands full.

Daddy didn’t make a whole lot of money, but he always had work. He was a hard working, law abiding, good father. We never did without anything we needed.
Mother was a homemaker. She cooked and cleaned, did all the ironing, and even took in ironing to help feed the family. She taught me a love for books. She had a good husband, and six wonderful children. I wanted to be just like her. Everyone loved her and respected her. She made our house a home.
I was a dreamer and very creative. I loved sewing, crafts, and my reading. I escaped my problems through my books and my fantasy world.
I don’t know where I got the idea, but I believed that I had to be loved, wanted and needed in order to be happy. I thought that I wanted to be a writer, and I always had a journal to write my feelings in. I wrote letters to God too. I really had no identity of my own. I believed that I had to be like someone else. No one ever told me that they loved me no matter what I said or did, or that it was alright to just be me. I always felt different than the other everyone else.
Forty years later and four marriages, I finally learned that it is alright to just be me, and that God loved me no matter what! I read this quote, ten years ago, I thought by accident, but now I know that God led me to it.
“Why Are You Trying To Fit In when you were made to stand out?”
Then this year I came across the quote, “Why Fit In When You Were Born To Stand Out?”
I had felt like such a failure, because everything I tried to do, had turned out bad. I married an abusive and unfaithful man, and I could not have children of my own.
When I finally hit my bottom, twenty five years ago, I called out to God, that I was angry at; and had blamed for my horrible life. I begged Him to save me. It is a long story maybe I will finish my book one day. I dreamed of being Louisa Mae Alcott, she was my heroine.
So sad, that I never felt good enough. God, the twelve steps, and therapy helped me to let go of the pain, and start my life over.

My Father’s Day Tribute To All Godly Fathers

God bless all our Godly fathers.

In my lifetime, I was blessed to have two wonderful fathers. One Daddy and a Step Dad. I thank God everyday to have been born in America, and being exactly who I am, and where I am, and doing exactly what I am doing.

If everyone could have Godly fathers, the world would be a lot better place, but that is just not reality! Some poor children grow up with no father, a evil, hateful, and abusive fathers. Some grow up with islamic/muslim satanic cult followers for fathers, that teach them to berate, rape, beat, and kill women. The children if they grow up at all, grow up evil and full of hate just like their fathers did. So, the EVIL cycle perpetuates itself onto the next generation. A few children escape the EVIL world of their fathers, yet they are not unscathed, they bear the scars the rest of their life’s.

In China they will grab a woman from her home and force her to have an abortion if it is more than one child, and baby girls are aborted! Now, how Communistic and Cruel is that!! Not in America!

God continue to bless all the Godly fathers, and wake up the evil ones to the damage that they are doing to their wifes and children. May they find God and change their ways.

We must fight to not allow these Barbaric animals to come to America with their sick way of “thinking” and “living”, and to spread their DISEASE OF HATE!! God bless America! God save America!!

Are You Part of the Problem or a part of the Solution?

You are either a part of the problem or a part of the solution. You cannot be both. Just like I posted in an earlier article, you can choose to be a blessing or a burden. I choose to be a part of the solution, and to be a blessing and be happy. I love helping others. It is in my genes. My Mother told me that I was always trying to help others when I was a little girl. I was taught to share with others. If I had a piece of candy, I shared it with my best friend. I was more fortunate than her in some ways. Her father died when she was four, and her mother had to raise five children alone. They lived across the street from us in Jacinto City, TX. They were happy even though they had very little materially, they had a lot of love. Her mother spent a lot of time with us children on the block playing cards, cooking us dinner, and had very little but she gave what she had to anyone who needed it. She was a true example of helping others.

In my adulthood and recovery, I had to learn that you could “help” too much, or enable them, and that “doing for someone else what God wanted them to do for themselves is no good, and just serves to keep them dependent and they will never grow up. They are not fulfilling God’s full purpose for their life’s. God wants us to be dependent on Him not people! He wants everything good for us.

I have been told that I was not Christian, because I don’t believe in giving ALL our money to charity, and feeding the rest of the world. I believe that God wants us to “bloom where we are planted”! He wants me to help others when I can, but if I don’t take care of me first, then I will have nothing to give anyone else.

Some people hate rich people, because they are JEALOUS of them. If God did not want them to have it, then they would not have it. It takes money to help others. Yes, some rich are addicted to money and greedy, but God will deal with them in the end. Besides the fact, that being “Greedy” or “Jealous” helps no one. It keeps the person miserable. I love what St. Paul said, “I have learned in whatsoever state I am in therewith to be content.” I have been happy with much, and I have been happy with little. The more that I accept things as they are, not as I would have them, the happier and more serene I am.

Thank God, we are judged by our insides NOT our outsides! God knows what you think, what you do, and He will give us the power to do what we are supposed to do. But we do have a choice, we can choose to serve God or we can choose to serve man. Man will ALWAYS fail you!

Thomas Merton said, “If you yourself are at peace, then there is at least some peace in the world.” If each of us works towards peace within ourselves, we actively become part of the solution to the problems of the world.

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What we’re saying today is that you’re either part of the solution or you’re part of the problem.
[1968 E. Cleaver Speech (in R. Scheer, Eldridge Cleaver (1969) 32)]

‘If you’re not the solution,’ says Peter Madden, ‘you’re part of the problem.’ ‘It would be terribly arrogant of me to believe I was the solution to anything.’

[1975 M. Bradbury History Man v.]
Listen, don’t you realize if you’re not part of the solution you’re part of the problem.

[1977 C. Mcfadden Serial xxvi.]
MTV used to broadcast environmental messages featuring the punchline ‘if you’re not part of the solution, you’re part of the problem’. Indeed.

A Good = GODLY Mother is Always With Her Children!

A Good = GODLY Mother is Always With Her Children
My Mother was laid to rest today. Up until the end, she was more worried about her children and how we would survive without her than she was with herself.
She left a strong legacy of love for all six of her children, and my step brother too. She lived her life, living, loving, and laughing. She loved people and they loved her. She and my Dad were my “rocks”, and were always there for me and my sisters and brothers when we needed them. My Dad left 10 years ago, and I still miss him everyday. My husband and I have a nice home, because of them. Without them we would have nothing.
My Mother’s Paternal ancestors go all the way back to the founding or our beloved country–the United States of America. Mother was a Republican and Patriot. She loved her God, Country, and her family. She made life-long friends. She was a good friend. She was a virtuous woman. She was a woman of her word. If she said that she was going to do something, then she always came through on her word. But…mostly she lived for her husband and her children. We were blessed to have her in our life’s for 84 years. RIP Mother.