This Too Shall Pass…


All of us have “good days” and “bad days”. No one is exempt from problems. Remind yourself of days when things did not go your way, or they were hard to live through, and those days have passed. I have had loved ones die, hurricanes, unemployment, divorces, and having to move many times. I have lived through everything, and I was wondering why I was alive and what was my purpose in life. In fact, just last August 2017 with Hurricane Harvey, I felt that way.

Now, I am back in my home, and God has graced me with the return of my “first love” back into my life in 2018 after 52 years apart. We both had married and moved on in life. We were both widowed. God does answer our prayers, just not always in our own time table. We married in June 2018, and we are so happy now. God is good. 

Did You Know That Whatever You Feed Grows?


Do you want “Good” in your life? Now, who would not, we think to ourselves.

Choices….if you want “Good” to increase…do and say good things…and …notice what someone does right. Notice what is Right and it increases…it Grows.

I promise if you look at others and notice their good qualities and praise them for it instead of only noticing the bad qualities that we all have…more good. I grew up with alcoholism along with negativity, depression, anger, shame, blaming, and making excuses for their bad choices. I choose “Good”, I choose GOD. 

If I focus on others negative all the time and never notice what they do right or focus on their flaws, then I make me and them both miserable. When I let them know their “Good” qualities and thank them for the “Good” things that they do or say to me, then we both feel better, and we feel love, wanted, needed.

Please, try to not always just complain, criticize, or blame others all the time. It helps no one! In my opinion, anger, resentment, and all other negative things in our life are the “Weeds” in our garden and the twelve steps are the inventory of “good” and “bad”.  BALANCE one of my favorite words. A BALANCE sheet of yourself. Then move on to the Fifth Step.

Focus on others good and make it a point to let them know that you appreciate it. Focus on the Solution instead of the Problem. Help NOT Hurt. “Bloom where you are planted.”

Whatever you feed will grow




It is a really sad day in America when those who try to feed our hungry children are persecuted. Down is up, and Evil and Selfishness are up, and are perceived as Good. It tells us in the Bible, that we are supposed to take care of our own First, then try to help others! In America there are those who have tried to help feed the homeless, and they have been fined and threatened with jail, now that is just Un-American and Un-Christian!! I thank GOD everyday that He answered my prayers and sent us President Trump to help us take back our country from the Demons!

My God, we have hungry and homeless here in America yet our Crooked politicians are trying to help the Illegals and Criminals!

Obama the Terrorist was feeding the ENEMY = satanic muslims! Allah is NOT God! Their allah is the Devil!

My Husband, The Light of my Life

My husband, “the light of my life.”

He is 58 and I am 60. God really does know what He is doing. We are able to be at home together with my “forced retirement”.

At first, I felt guilty, because I had always worked since I was 12. I was brought up to believe, that if I wanted something that I had to work for it.

Now, God wants me to care for my husband, obviously because that is where I am, for now, and I love it. Not the part about him being sick but the part about having him to share my life. In my program for living, and the twelve steps, I have learned to “accept life on life’s terms”, and so I am content with whatever God has given me. 

I am so grateful for what God has given me, and for what He has taken away too–the chaos, insanity, and the loneliness. In its place God has given me serenity, peace, strength, and solace.  

I thank God everyday for my 27 years in recovery, because without it I would not be doing as well on this “acceptance” thing. I accept the fact that I am NOT God, and that my husband is in God’s hands.  I am grateful for every minute that He gives me with him until God calls him home.

The old me would be living in “self pity” and crying and whining around about how God made me wait so long for my hubby, and the fact that he is sick. I only saw the “bad” in my life.

Someone coined it, a “New Pair of Glasses”, they wrote a book about it. I have not thought about that book in a long while. I will have to get it out and look at it again.

I am looking through a new pair of glasses, and I am seeing what is “right” with my life instead of always looking for what is “wrong” in my life. It makes for a lot more peace and serenity.

Excellent book for anyone, even if you are not in Recovery. 

But For The Grace Of God…There Go I!

But for the grace of God, I could have been born in one of those God forsaken countries that has communism and the satanic cult of islam, instead of our Christian nation. I don’t believe that it was because I deserved it but because of God’s grace.

I know that I cannot save the world or stop evil from happening, but I do have empathy for the poor people that have to live in that evil. I will do whatever I can to wake up more people to the evils of the satanic cult of islam and communism.

But for the grace of God, I was born into a Christian family that taught us to love each other not rape, torture, maim, or kill each other. I have never been homeless, and never gone hungry.

God has truly blessed me. It reminds me to be grateful to be who I am and to live where I live. It reminds me to be grateful that my ancestors were Christian, hard working, and good people. My ancestors fought and died to keep our country free and safe.  Even with all the corruption, communism, and islam infiltrating our country, America is still the best country to live in.

I will help fight to keep America Christian, and Capitalist.  God bless all our veteran heroes, past and present. Thank God for my American heroes and veterans.

Little Girl and Flag

ONE DAY AT A TIME~My Will or God’s Will?

God gave me the reminder to take my life “One Day at a Time”. With all the craziness of our world and all the problems of life, it is hard to “stay in the now”.

 So, I decided to write about it, and share my experience, strength, and hope.  It has been one of the hardest things for me to learn since my recovery began twenty six years ago. I always lived in “regret” about the past, or “fear” of the future. I never lived in today.  I either allowed others to make my decisions for me, and then blamed them when things went wrong or tried to control others decisions for them. Yes, I started out doing it out of love, but then it became an “obsession”. It was as though if I focused on you, then I did not have to look at me. I have found that I have the choice to be “God-centered”, “Self-centered”, or “Other-centered”. I have lived them all! The only choice that I want today is “God-centered”. This subject kind of ties into the Step 11 post that I wrote.

Oh, by the way everyone has problems. I did not know that. I thought that a lot of other people had life a lot easier than me. Today, I break up my problems into steps. I use the twelve steps to help me find a “solution” to my “problem”. There are some things that I have no control over! We live in a sinful world, that is a Reality! We are in a “Spiritual Warfare” for our lives and our souls. I do believe that there is good and evil in this world, and sometimes bad things happen to good people. Yes, sometimes Reality sucks!

As a little girl, I was a free spirit and yearned for a world where everyone was good, nice, kind, and the world was at peace. There were no wars, or abuse, or the devil in my “dream world”. Everyone loved everyone else. As an adult, I have accepted the fact that I cannot have my way, and that life is not like that.

Today, I live in Reality! I apply the steps to any problem that I have. Step 1: What is the problem? Step 2: What are some solutions? Step 3: What are the consequences of those solutions? Step 4: Which do I choose? Step 5: What if the solution does not solve the problem? Step 6: I can choose to be angry or accept reality, and get on with my life. 

Today, I take life “One Day at a Time”, one problem at  a time, one solution at a time. I choose not to be a “martyr” and allow others to “abuse” me or “use” me, because then I get “resentments” and it messes with my serenity, besides the fact that I do not believe that is God’s will for me. Some things we are “powerless” over, but some things God wants us to do. God works through people, as well as the devil does. 


I learned this song as a child, and I really love it today. We are to deliver the message, and they can do with it what they will. They will have to pay their consequences not us. No more EXCUSES! No matter what happens to me, I know that Jesus loves me and will NEVER forsake me. I left Him, he did not leave me. Like a gentleman, he waited for me to choose His will for my life. No one can separate us from God unless we allow them to. We must contine to “fight the good fight, and fight evil! We are in a Spiritual War for our souls! Satan works through people and comes in many forms to seek and destroy.  


Dance Floor
Dance Floor (Photo credit: enric archivell)
English: Barbie Portrait
English: Barbie Portrait (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Dance in the Rain2

As a little girl I loved to play in the rain. I was a free spirit. I loved singing, dancing, writing, and reading. I had a diary for as along as I can remember. Writing always helped me to sort out my feelings and vent my anger. I was a creative child and I used to make my own cards out of colored construction paper and pictures out of magazines. I lived in my dream world and my Barbie doll world. In January, I will be (60) sixty years of age, but I don’t feel that old.

In adulthood, I began to dread the rain, and I thought about how the rain got my clothes wet, or made the road muddy, and I began thinking that rain was a bad thing. 

And…in recovery, I have learned how to dance in the rain. I enjoy the good days, and tolerate the bad days knowing that tomorrow may be better. God has carried me through many losses, the latest of which was my mother dying last year. My mother was my inspiration, she was my idol. All I ever wanted to be was a wife and mother just like her. I am grateful to have had 58 wonderful years with her. She made me the loving, caring, and sensitive person that I am today. I tell people that all of my good qualities I got from her, and the bad ones, I did on my own. 

The Farmer and the Viper~Good Versus Evil

Good has been fighting evil since Adam and Eve. It is not a new story to anyone who has read the Bible. We are all in a Spiritual Battle for our souls. The devil works through people, just as God does. We must continue to fight the evil that is consuming our country and our lives! I believe without a doubt that the devil is in the W.H. and our Congress. The devil is every where. He uses our weaknesses to gain control over us to manipulate us into doing his will instead of God’s!! God’s will is for all things good and true. The devil is for all things evil and bad. We must continue the “good fight”. Onward Christian Soldiers

The Farmer and the Viper

The Farmer and the Viper is one of Aesop’s Fables, numbered 176 in the Perry Index. It has the moral that kindness to the evil will be met by betrayal and is the source of the idiom ‘to nourish a viper in one’s bosom’. 

The story

The story concerns a farmer who finds a viper freezing in the snow. Taking pity on it, he picks it up and places it within his coat. The viper, revived by the warmth, bites his rescuer, who dies realizing that it is his own fault. The story is recorded in both Greek and Latin sources. In the former, the farmer dies reproaching himself ‘for pitying a scoundrel’, while in the version by Phaedrus the snake says that he bit his benefactor ‘to teach the lesson not to expect a reward from the wicked’. The latter sentiment is made the moral in Medieval versions of the fable. Odo of Cheriton‘s snake answer’s the farmer’s demand for an explanation with a counter-question, ‘‘Did you not know that there is enmity and natural antipathy between your kind and mine? Did you not know that a serpent in the bosom, a mouse in a bag and fire in a barn give their hosts an ill reward?”

An illustration of La Fontaine‘s fable by Ernest Griset

There is an alternative version in which the farmer takes the snake home to revive it and is bitten there. Eustache Deschamps tells it this way in a moral ballade dating from the end of the 14th century in which the repeated refrain is ‘Evil for good is often the return’.

William Caxton amplifies this version by having the snake threaten the farmer’s wife and then strangle the farmer when he tries to intervene. In still another variation, the farmer kills the snake with an axe when it threatens his wife and children. La Fontaine tells it thus as Le villageois et le serpent (VI.13).

The Russian fabulist Ivan Krylov adapts the story to address contemporary circumstances in his “The Peasant & The Snake”. Written at a time when many Russian families were employing French prisoners from Napoleon I‘s invasion of 1812 to educate their children, he expressed his distrust of the defeated enemy. In his fable the snake seeks sanctuary in a peasant home and pleads to be employed ‘to embrace the kitten, caress a maid love-smitten,’ or to look after the young. The peasant replies that he cannot take the risk of endangering his family and kills the snake.

Hausa tale from the north of Nigeria has certain details similar to Aesop in its treatment of ingratitude for favours rendered. A farmer hides a hunted snake by allowing it to creep up his anus. When the snake refuses to leave its comfortable quarters, a heron helps him to expel it. The man then asks how to neutralise the poison that the snake has left and the heron tells him to make a medicine of six white fowl. The man ties it up to make the first of his victims but his wife frees it. On leaving, the heron pecks out one of her eyes. The story-teller ends with the remark that ‘if you see the dust of a fight rising, you will know that a kindness is being repaid’.

Proverbial use

Aesop’s fable was widespread in Classical times and allusions to it became proverbial. One of the very earliest is in a poem by the 6th century BCE Greek poet Theognis of Megara, who refers to a friend who has betrayed him as the ‘chill and wily snake that I cherished in my bosom’.  

In the work of Cicero it appears as In sinu viperam habere (to have a snake in the breast) and in Erasmus‘ 16th century collection of proverbial phrases, the Adagia, as Colubrum in sinu fovere (to nourish a serpent in one’s bosom). 

The usual English form is ‘to nourish a snake (or viper) in one’s bosom’, a phrase used by Geoffrey Chaucer (Merchant’s Tale, line 1786), William Shakespeare (Richard II 3.2.129–31,) John Milton (Samson Agonistes, line 763) and John Dryden (All for Love 4.1.464–66), among the foremost.

Modern versions

Nathaniel Hawthorne‘s short story “Egotism or The Bosom-Serpent” (1843) reinterprets the phrase used of Delilah in Milton’s dramatic poem Samson Agonistes. Milton was alluding to cherishing the proverbial ‘snake in the bosom’, in this case the woman who had betrayed him. In Hawthorne’s story a husband separated from his wife, but still dwelling upon her, becomes inturned and mentally unstable. The obsession that is killing him (and may even have taken physical form) vanishes once the couple are reconciled.

Khushwant Singh‘s short-story “The Mark of Vishnu” (1950) gives the story an Eastern background. A Brahmin priest, assured in the belief that a cobra has a godly nature and will never harm others if treated courteously, is nevertheless killed by the snake when trying to heal and feed it.[10]

The singer Al Wilson introduced a variant telling of the fable in his song “The Snake” (1968). There it is a ‘tender woman’ who finds a dying, half-frozen snake on the side of the road and takes it home to revive it. The snake later bites her, then says as she is dying in disbelief, “Silly woman, you knew I was a snake before you brought me in!”  This version is repeated in the film Natural Born Killers(1994).~~~Wikipedia

Title page of Three Hundred Aesop's FablesWenceslas Hollar - Aesop



English: The Apostle Paul
English: The Apostle Paul (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
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English: Their are thousands of artworks created in the art world depicting St Paul. This painting was created by the famous artist called Rembrandt. It hangs on the walls of the National Gallery of Art, Washington DC (Photo credit: Wikipedia)


God can take something that is meant to harm us from the devil and bless us with it. Sometimes the thing that we think is not good, is the best thing for us, and God’s will. I have learned through the years to put it into God’s hands because only He knows what is best for me.  He has always known what is better for me than myself.

Paul the Apostle, Russian icon from first quar...
Paul the Apostle, Russian icon from first quarter of 18th cen. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

God will never leave me nor forsake me. He has promised me. I am truly blessed.

One of my favorite quotes out of the Bible is: “I have learned in whatsoever state I am in, therewith to be content.”~~Apostle Paul

My Father’s Day Tribute To All Godly Fathers

God bless all our Godly fathers.

In my lifetime, I was blessed to have two wonderful fathers. One Daddy and a Step Dad. I thank God everyday to have been born in America, and being exactly who I am, and where I am, and doing exactly what I am doing.

If everyone could have Godly fathers, the world would be a lot better place, but that is just not reality! Some poor children grow up with no father, a evil, hateful, and abusive fathers. Some grow up with islamic/muslim satanic cult followers for fathers, that teach them to berate, rape, beat, and kill women. The children if they grow up at all, grow up evil and full of hate just like their fathers did. So, the EVIL cycle perpetuates itself onto the next generation. A few children escape the EVIL world of their fathers, yet they are not unscathed, they bear the scars the rest of their life’s.

In China they will grab a woman from her home and force her to have an abortion if it is more than one child, and baby girls are aborted! Now, how Communistic and Cruel is that!! Not in America!

God continue to bless all the Godly fathers, and wake up the evil ones to the damage that they are doing to their wifes and children. May they find God and change their ways.

We must fight to not allow these Barbaric animals to come to America with their sick way of “thinking” and “living”, and to spread their DISEASE OF HATE!! God bless America! God save America!!

Chief of the least

“The answer to the problem of evil does not lie in trying to establish its point of origin, for that is simply not revealed to us. Rather, in the moment of the cross, it becomes clear that evil is utterly subverted for good…. If God can take the greatest of evils and turn them for the greatest of goods, then how much more can he take the lesser evils which litter human history, from individual tragedies to international disasters, and turn them to his good purpose as well.”
― Carl Trueman

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