Let Go And Let GOD Be God

“O our God, will You not exercise judgement upon them? For we have no might to stand against this great company that is coming against us. We do not know what to do, but our eyes are upon You.” ~~2 Chronicles 20:12

Here Jehoshaphat admits to God openly his total inability to deal with the problem. For years I tried very hard to change myself without success. I tried so hard and so long to break bad habits only to fail time and time again. I tried to alter different things in my life, to get prosperity, to make my ministry grow, and to be healed. I remember wanting to give up because I was so exhausted from trying to fight my own battles. I went through all that on a regular basis until I was being really kind of melodramatic about it, trying to impress God with how miserable I was. I said something like, “God, I’ve had it. This is it. I’m through. Nothing I’m doing is working. I give up. I’m not going to do this anymore. Just then, deep inside me, I heard the Holy Spirit say, “Really?” There was real excitement in His voice. That happens because the only time He gets to work in us is when we become so exhausted that we finally decide,  “Instead of trying to do this myself, I’m going to let go and let God be God.” Trying to be God will wear you out fast. Why not give up your own effort and do what Jehoshaphat did in verse 12? Admit to God that you have no might to stand against your enemies and that you don’t know what to do, but you’re looking to Him for direction and deliverance. source: New Day, NEW YOU, Joyce Meyers, 2007

I always have had problems with setting, and keeping boundaries. As a child, I had only two choices: comply or get a beating. In school we had NO choices, it was their way or the highway.  I was NOT allowed to define my own boundaries or to be myself. I was NOT expected to defend myself, because in those days, the teachers and doctors were god and were never wrong. And…whatever they said was the law.

I believe my addictions began about the age of twelve. I used to escape a critical, confining, and controlling environment through my addictions. I did not believe there was a god, or else I was such a horrible child that I deserved to treated the way that I was, so I wanted no part of him or established religion.

In my recovery, I found God, because I had tried living my life my way, and I had hit bottom in order to be desperate enough to give into something that I thought was make-believe and not real. I was allowed choices. I could go on to the bitter end, or try this god-thing.

I was allowed to choose the “higher power” that I needed for me. I chose one that was not a hateful, abusive, critical, condemning, controlling God, but a loving and forgiving one. I had to stop “playing god”.  I am NOT God, so it is NOT my job but God’s job.

Through the years, I have learned to let go a lot sooner, and stop playing God. I asked for help, instead of suffering alone. I was taught that all I have to do is to do the best that I can, and leave the results up to God. We have to do the “footwork” or the next “right thing”.

I make a lot better decisions today and I have a lot more peace and serenity as a by product of “right living”.  No, I am not perfect because I am human. I am a Human Being, not a Human Doing. I almost died trying to be perfect, and still today I have “defects of character” that I am working with God on. 

Overcome Evil With Good

“Do not let yourself be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.”  Romans 12:21

When I work with others it helps me to get out of myself and my own problems,  and it pushes me to think of how to help them, then in turn, God helps me and blesses me.

God provides all my needs, and some of my wants. Everyone knows someone who is less fortunate than them. Reach out where you are. the quote, “Bloom where you are planted” has a special meaning for me.

In other words, we cannot help everyone but we can help those that God has put in our path to help.

HELP = Helping Other Lonely People.

It breaks my heart that I cannot help everyone, but that is reality.

I visited a friend in the nursing home Friday, and of course she was so happy to see us and to be remembered especially during the holidays. I had several little gifts, but there were so many people there that looked lonely and sad, but just saying Merry Christmas doesn’t seem to be enough.

I am not financially able to visit very often. But…one little frail lady really tugged at my heart strings. I was going to my friend’s car to get the gifts, and I walked by her sitting in her wheelchair crying for someone to help her. I told her Merry Christmas, but I had nothing left to give. She stopped calling for help for a few minutes, and she said that she wished that she had someone to come see her. She reminded me of my mother in her last days, all she wanted was to be loved and given attention.

God it made me think of mother’s last six years at home with us, and it taught me to be grateful that my mother did not have to go through that. I had already made the New Year’s resolution with myself, that I was going to start visiting the nursing homes near me. I don’t have money for gas to go far, and my truck is old and not in that good of shape. But…God reminded me again, to “Bloom where I am planted”.


“The wicked flee when no man pursues them, but the [uncompromisingly] righteous are bold as a lion.”~~Proberbs 28:1

Bold Enough to be Led by the Spirit

“If we intend to succeed at being ourselves, we must reach a point where we can be led by the Holy spirit. Only God, through His Spirit, will lead us to succeed and be all we can be. Other people usually won’t, the devil certainly won’t, and we are not able to do it ourselves without God. Being led by the Spirit does not mean that we do not make mistakes or that we are perfect. The Holy Spirit does not make mistakes but we do.

Following the Spirit’s leading is a process which can only be learned by doing. We start by stepping out into things we believe God is putting on our hearts, and we learn by wisdom and experience how to hear more clearly and definitely. 

I say that boldness is required to be led by the Spirit because: 1.) only boldness steps out, and 2.) only boldness can survive making mistakes. When insecure people make mistakes, they often will never try again. Bold people make many mistakes, but their attitude is, “I’m going to keep trying until I learn to do this right.” 

Those who suffer from condemnation usually don’t believe they can hear from God. Even if they think they may have heard from God and do step out, a minor failure is a major setback to them. I am prepared mentally and emotionally not to be defeated by mistakes and problems when they do come. 

Be bold. Be determined that you are going to be all God wants you to be. Don’t hide behind fears and insecurities any longer. If you have already made major blunders in your life and have been living under condemnation for a reason, and I encourage you to take this message personally, just as though God were talking directly to you through it. Be determined to press on toward victory.” ~~~Joyce Meyer

Be Spirit Led

God is not an author of “fear” or “confusion”. If we are afraid or confused, then it probably is not God’s will.

Yves Johnson Ministries

Have you ever read Matt 4:1-2?  We don’t know if Jesus was immediately led to the wilderness or if this was some time after His baptism.  Luke 4:1 says, “Jesus returned from the Jordan River.” What we do know is that He was “led by the Spirit.”  This is an object lesson for us.  Likewise, we must be “led by the Spirit.”  The Spirit will never lead us to a place where we shouldn’t be.  If we lead ourselves, we’re doomed to get lost.

How can you be led by the Spirit?  Seek God’s direction through prayer.  How can you tell if the Spirit is leading you? Is what you’re being “led” to do in line with a Christ-like behavior?  If so, then you’re on the right path.

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God Answered My Prayers~~His Grace Is Enough

Uploaded on Feb 15, 2011

Great is Your faithfulness oh God
You wrestle with the sinner’s heart
You lead us by still waters in to mercy
And nothing can keep us apart

So remember Your people
Remember Your children
Remember Your promise
Oh God

Your grace is enough
Your grace is enough
Your grace is enough for me

Great is Your love and justice God of Jacob
You use the weak to lead the strong
You lead us in the song of Your salvation
And all Your people sing along

So remember Your people
Remember Your children
Remember Your promise
Oh God

Your grace is enough
Your grace is enough
Your grace is enough for me [x2]

So remember Your people
Remember Your children
Remember Your promise
Oh God

Your grace is enough
Your grace is enough
Your grace is enough for me

Your grace is enough
Heaven reaching down to us
Your grace is enough for me
God I see your grace is enough
I’m covered in your love
Your grace is enough for me
For me.

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God the Father 01 (Photo credit: Waiting For The Word)

In 1980, I learned that I had Endometriosis and could not have any children. We had tried for ten years to have a baby. I came from a big family, and I wanted a big family too. It broke my heart, and I became angry, depressed, and wanted to give up. My dream of having a husband and home were crushed! My husband was unfaithful. I cried out to God for a baby, and two years later God answered my prayers and sent me the little boy, that is now thirty one and the “love of my life”. My son gave me a reason to live. He needed me. His birthmother did not want a child, and never wanted to see him. I too was terrified that she would change her mind. God blessed me with a beautiful baby boy. My prayers were answered.

My gift from God, Jason, thirty years ago!   My graduation on March 26, 2009, Webster, TX, from ITT TECH.

Step 3~Made a Decision to Turn Our Will and Our Lives Over to the Care of God, As We Understood Him


The Third Step and Your Prayer 

3. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood him.

This statement follows the Third Step Prayer on page 63 of the Big Book
“The wording [used for the prayer to affirm our “3rd Step Decision”] was, of course, quite optional so long as we expressed the idea, voicing it without reservation.”

Some of our founders and early members of the fellowship used a prayer other than the one on page 63 of the Big Book to take newcomers through their “decision” — namely because the Big Book wasn’t printed until 1939 and they got our Program from Oxford Group principles. Bill W., Dr. Bob, and Bill D. started making 12 Step calls and taking others through the original 6 “steps” in the summer of 1935.

Here are a couple examples of “3rd Step Prayers” used by our early members: 


Dear God, 
I’m sorry about the mess I’ve made of my life.
I want to turn away from all the wrong things I’ve ever done and all the wrong things I’ve ever been. Please forgive me for it all.
I know You have the power to change my life and can turn me into a winner. Thank You, God for getting my attention long enough to interest me in trying it Your way.
God, please take over the management of my life and everything about me. I am making this conscious decision to turn my will and my life over to Your care and am asking You to please take over all parts of my life.
Please, God, move into my heart. However You do it is Your business, but make Yourself real inside me and fill my awful emptiness. Fill me with your love and Holy Spirit and make me know Your will for me. And now, God, help Yourself to me and keep on doing it. I’m not sure I want You to, but do it anyhow.
I rejoice that I am now a part of Your people, that my uncertainty is gone forever, and that You now have control of my will and my life. Thank You and I praise Your name. Amen.

The Third Step Prayer

from page 63 of the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous

God, I offer myself to Thee- 
To build with me
and to do with me as Thou wilt.
Relieve me of the bondage of self,
that I may better do Thy will.
Take away my difficulties,
that victory over them may bear witness
to those I would help of Thy Power,
Thy Love, and Thy Way of life.
May I do Thy will always!

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